Till the fish learn to fly through a giant meatpie.

Sunday, May 29, 2011

Avril Lavigne - Smile

i love this though. haha.

Avril Lavigne - When You're Gone

this is so sad, avril has great music, but why are her videos packaged in such a way? now this is why it is so impt to educate yr children, and not let them get ideas in their head. =x

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Haiya, y u not here to share my work exp w me?! Haiz..

But i recognize that i'm feeling uncomfortable. Not used to being alone, sorry stand corrected. Used to having occasional absences, but stil, it would help. But then, i might be too comfy and reliant. Not gd for me. I muz rmb to be independent. That said, i nid to split my cash into diff a/c ya. Hmm. So, yes. Go get those kids tml!!!

Anw it's only a few more days!! :D

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

i'm so tired, i fell aslp in front of the tv, the noose. OMG.

wah lau. next time, muz make sure you dont get a job which you dont like and dont noe anything abt. haha.

the kids are wonderful, but i forgot i shld not let one kid get my entire day down and restless. haha.

rmb my real motive here. i'm working from the bottoms up to noe more abt the business.

Friday, May 20, 2011

i tink my emotions are always either extremely stressed and depressed, or it'll be deliriously happy.

i forgot how is it like to be peaceful. one day i'll reward my poor overworked heart. so sorry <3

Thursday, May 19, 2011

you noe, sometimes i wish i can juz drop dead.

dun u dare tell me i'm selfish. they haven been dat selfless either.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

I tink u always manage to leave me at the worst possible time..haha.

But, everytime, i noe it's a decision i have to make myself, because it affects my own future.

Shld i go, or shld i not go?? If i go, there is better reflection, but no guarantee since it'll alr have been on record.

But why shld i then, if it's alr on record?! Besides...i didnt go in blind. I had prior and post permission, all emails kept as proof. But u threatened me n said it'll not reflect well on me in future when i get appointed into....

I believe i noe it in my heart wad to expect for the future. E uncertainty. And hence, i really have to be prepared to change. I nid to strengthen myself anf fortify myself wif plenty o vitamins, e more potent e better.

I stil wish i can seek yr opinion, but since it's ultimately my own decision, i nid to do wad my heart and mind dictates.

I feel so defeated, by a system i defended so much. But changes nid to be accounted for, and i have to be stronger than e wave and ride above it.

I nid to trust in myself, that i have been strong enuf, and i will be too in e future. That, is the promise to myself.

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

in e midst of so much stress alr, can my officer juz stop piling them on me?!!!! u fucking reply so late then without my yes u juz went ahead and assume. knn. u dun wan to help me get thru the backgate stil wan to enrol me. tmd.

Monday, May 09, 2011

why do i insist on killing myself by killing hope.

e less i noe e more hope rite?!!!!!!

good nite....

Sunday, May 08, 2011

haiz. i shldnt have gone to check. but there was a burning desire n i couldnt resist.

now i noe for sure? i screw up my 2nd essay with the first. haiz. wanna bang my head against the wall. i dont tink i'll fail, hopefully, but prolly 50/100. if my quotations are accepted.

such a claustrophobic heart.

breathe baby. u cant stop here.

breathe. press on. it's only a few more days.

there is a time for everything okay.

breathe. baby breathe.

i cant stop thinking abt 206.

i cant believe myself. for fuck i go refute the statement?

i'm so angry at my self i cant even bring myself to type and continue reading for other mods.

goooooddd....

MY GOD!!!!!!!!! I JUZ RECEIVED CONFIRMATION THAT I'M WRONG IN REFUTING THE STATEMENT!!!!! IT IS PART OF MODERISM!!!! OMF!!!! siao liao. 30 m...

this sem i feel so drained out and in constant depression. i tink not totally my fault. somehow my worst state of depression comes when i take the pills regularly. e doc was not happy, but he didnt harp. heng...

but ya. totally in a daze when i came out of the first paper. my goodness. i had tot maybe this mod wun be tt bad, since i kinda get wad fratt was saying. but ohmygoodness, i totally couldnt conc on the paper! keep stoning. worse, when i looked up, it was 430 sharp. and i had one more essay. hate myself for panicking. but i couldnt control. in e end, after written a crappy first essay, i screwed up my second. by refuting the given statement.

WAD KIND OF IDIOT DOES TT!!!!

we're told specifically to explain the significance!!!!!!! wah lau........haiz. feel a physical urge in my stomach to bang my head against the wall. haiz.

my essay better get AAA++++++. if not really arhx...damn hard to pass this sem.

but i feel so sorry and heartbroken for myself. i've worked so hard for the past 5 sem. attending lectures and doing research. this sem the same, even when friends dont come n i noe i'll be alone, i stil went. haiz. wads e point man...wads e point.

i juz feel so...defeated....even e mrt broke down or sth on the way hme. haiz. wtf. i tink i shld juz abandon myself n resign to tt stupid so near yet so far grade. haiz.

juz really heartpain for myself.

damn....

Sunday, May 01, 2011

i might be pro-PAP POLICIES,

but even I can see the wrong word choices by PAP. their words do not reflect wads really happening, but kinda tweaking the truth. maybe i'm a lit major and sensitive to word choice, but....

the reason why WP's slogans might be selling? they dare to point out the flaws of PAP's argument.

our dear leaders nid to udnerstand that they have invested in our education, and it made singaporeans smarter, and want more. the policies of i tell u u listen does nt work in this age anymore. the safe formulas are gone, and you nid to really understand how the (especially the older gen of workers who were chinese educated but still form a good base of voters) people tink. for eg. one issue of concern. foreigners. i'm all for immigrants, but i want only the high-end talents. i utd banglas are here to contruct our homes, but i dun utd how chinese students, who do not perform academically are given PR status as the ones who work hard academically, or those weird chinese aunites who are mistresses. dun tell me these ppl are far and few, no system is perfect. the ministries shld do a calculation on how many such ppl have been admitted into the system, and when i tink of these lazy bums sharing our low cost med costs, i feel a sense of anger. naturally. dun wait for elections to say that measures are tightening. these ppl are in alr.

checks and balances are good. property prices will fall with a change of mp? if the mp are doing their job of proper upgrading, prices wun fall. hg flats are worth alot btw. esp central. tink of where the mrt and mall and plaza are at.

tt said, of course as a small fry singaporean, i tink we shld vote for the candidates who are really good, regardless of opp or pap. pm lee is like way better than reform party, and csj shld jus disappear forever, siao. reduce ns? and.....dig into reserves? seriously? wtf. reserves are emergency $$, where got anyhow use de. siao.

all above posted: strictly personal opinions only. juz trying to voice a little opinio. these words shall not be used by u dirty sneaky reporters or whosoever for a cheap lunch okay? strictly personal opinions. not factual. based on personal opinions.

:) may the best man wins.