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What fish?

I am fish. Full name Fish Turtle.
I absolutely adore turtles. And fish
Turtles are such cute little things!
Well, only baby turtles.

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

i need to calm down and stop for a while to think about the persistent anxiety in my heart. it aint doing no good for my poor heart. if this goes on, i'm gg to give out in a short time. too short. i haven gone travelling yet. i haven take all the airplanes until i want to puke. most imptly, it aint good for my frame of mind.

i noe my gpa gonna free fall after this sem. what can i do? stop. breathe. think. how impt is this? if teaching cannot be a good career, either i find new source of income and continue to teach, or i change track totally. changing track is not scary. i've changed all my answers to fit a question before. i've discarded entire preparations to do impromptu style before. i've even not answered an entire essay and manage to survive not too badly.

one mod is not gg to kill me. it might kill the overworn fingertips of my gpa which is hanging on the cliff, but it wouldnt kill me. there has to be a way out of this.

i'm gg to make it work.

but first, i nid to stop this attack on my heart.

so now, read and reread the post until i believe it. before tml comes n my heart gives out altogether.

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

this sem is really the worst so far.

last sem, my essay grades werent too bad.

omg. this sem. i'm really pushing it.

aed281: all my teammates s/u. n e project is 40%. fine.
222: bedescott is known for being lenient. but. he sae i didnt ans the qn directly. fine.
214. my thesis apparently all over the place. fine.
410????? feminism? how can i get such grades?! oh yes. prolly because i had the race of the main character wrong which means my entire argument is flawed?

for the first time, i noe wad is despair. despair occurs right after u realise the bell curve is not gg to help when everyone is getting gd grades.

Friday, November 18, 2011

so demoralised alr.

n tml's only the second paper.


it's a stormy friday.

and i've been officially killed once by the first paper.

tml, i'll die a second death.

may it be quick.


i should've listened to my guts instincts and take other mods.

too late to regret.

goodbye 2nd upper. worked my ass off to maintain you, and now u throw a tantrum.

haiz.

Saturday, November 12, 2011

I'm like, okay this doesnt surprise me. But tml will be better. Not gonna get down. I'll win thiz war!