serious ramblings.

of all the people in the world. rich poor, whatever, i admire the people living in the countryside with a tiny cottage and green grass and bright sunshine. colorful flowers growing wild and in abundance, birds chirping and laundry hanging out in the backgarden.

its such a wonderful dream. peace and peace n no nid to worry abt other things other people other others. fits the description of a british countryside, but i wouldnt mind anywhere as long as i'm far far away.

with my loved ones of coz.

but then, i wouldnt noe wad to do for money n practical matters. u cant live on sounds sights and touch n smells. u nid taste.

my dream is so far away its heartbreaking.

swash. slf-pity.

i'm not the adventurous type. i stay in my comfort zone because there is simply no meaning or enticement to pursue great things for the sake of saying i've been through this n this. so wad if i can climb the highest mountains n have my name recorded for generations to come? so what if i can achieve the fastest and longest n have my accomplishments recorded in the guiness world records?

so what?

when i grow old n look back, would i wish i have traded sth for sth else? who knows?

ultimately my life is mine.

i dun noe where my life would take me. i dun noe where i wanna take my life to. i'm singaporean n always will be singaporean, with all its flaws n lifelessness. it's still where i wanna be.

i've always been sure n giving the same answer with confidence and deep belief.

but right now, i'm a little shaken. i guess. haha. i realise i cant give the no never answer anymore. a little changed i guess. lol.

but perhaps, hmm...i dun noe....see where life takes me n where i wan to take my life.......
i guess....

2:35 pm ┬╖