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What fish?
I am fish. Full name Fish Turtle.
I absolutely adore turtles. And fish
Turtles are such cute little things!
Well, only baby turtles.
Sunday, October 07, 2007
Fear. time-non-existent?

i am writing this note after i have completed my post. ha. and i tink unless u r bored with seriously nth to do , u shld go away n read someone else blog. =/

after attending sot's last lecture for the year......i reflected and suddenly, the first wave of fear hit me.
yea. fear. fear coming from this person hu has a damn loud voice and always gg ard screaming at ppl. haha.
but yea. fear. i am scared. scared of the complex world yet simple world. i noe i shldnt be, and tt the big big world has onli more opportunities for me and hardly anyone out there to be fearful of. but i am wondering. wad if i cant match up the expections, or i cant keep up well enuf to make use of opp. i dont think i am a veri smart person......and i am slow in thinking out certain process. wad if, just wad if, one day i end up like the older generation, where they cant keep up the many changes and thus refuse to change.
okay yea. unfounded fears. but really, if one day i become just another cog in the pap machine..........where will i stand? can i ever break out the paper chase and run for sth i tink more worthwhile??
uncertainties. yea. tt must be why i am afraid. =/

also, was just tinking abt one particular show. i forgt the name of the show, but then it was abt a family hu had drank soem miracle water and discovered tt they were gg to live forever and tt nth cant ever harm them, nt even if they fall head-down from a tall tree, nt even if a round of 100 bullets hit them straight. time simply didnt exist for them. they maybe feel like they were drifting ard like a log in the river, nt moving here nor there, but nt exactly stagnant, but wad i wan to say is tt they lived simply and did everything slowly. like in the romantic period where ppl lived simply and do not tink abt complexities. oh well.

but i must not want to go back to the past. its impossible. for now. i will just have to suck it all up and then..........see where i go. ha.

wad a load of crap.