blank mind filled with stress.

life is so stressful these days.
my goodness. what have i gotten myself into??

so little time. so many things.

school's esp sian. not only me saying tt, but everyone in the clique. haiz. so many essays, and where to find my own qn?! as if i'm very deep person likdat. i cant see beyond unless someone leads. then i put my best work forward.

which leads me to the other BIG MEGA issue. uni-y. i'm like thrown into the sea with the sharks and without anyone showing me how to swim and without a lifeline. i cant even be sure whether i'm following the club after its formalisation, but i'm expected to lead the lcs. haiz. major headache. so much demands, and so little light shed.

meeting 2dae was fruitful though, despite all my worries. ser hwee esp have loads of great ideas, n i'm sure between the 4 of us, we can hopefully generate sth tt would save our asses. tink more ppl nid to join us though, before we can actually get the programs to start working. i hope i'm not expected to find the volunteers myself, coz desmond promised me he'll shift manpoer to me. how to attract i dun noe. i tried being high myself during the ppt le, but to no avail. -.- haiz. such a disappointment. i'll rebel if i'm supposed to find the committee. i cant make lcs more exciting than it alr is. wad u wan me to tell them?? sharks will appear or we can go shopping or sth?

so little support, though i'm grateful for my sub com being there and sharing all my visions and agreeing there cant be all leaders and no volunteers without me bringing it up *haha*, i still feel stressed. i cant be the miracle worker tt pulls ppl like magic. i dun noe how to make lcs more exciting. they have to experience for themselves. n i myself haven even exp our initiated project *like duh. its initiated*, how to get members?!

take a breath.

oh crap. i feel like shit.

i promise myself i'll have a damn great blast for myself during the hols. i'm not letting anything stop me.

except maybe cash flow. haha.

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